Love hard when there is love to be had.

I went to a junk yard yesterday. It was an absolutely terrifying place.
I was definitely the cleanest thing to ever walk in those doors.

Things To Do This Summer:

• Finish the basement renovation and move down there (next week!!!!)
• Go to the Glenbow Museum. 
• Spend time in Red Deer with J's family. 
• STAMPEDE
• Go to Edmonton to see the Sam Steele collection exhibit at Enterprise Square. 
• Get hired for a teaching job for September.
• Go to Edmonton to visit my brooo. 
• Go horseback riding with L. 
• Take my boyfriend riding (hehe)
• Spend a weekend in Banff.
• Go camping (at least two more times)
• Go white water rafting with V. 
• Go rafting down the Bow.
• Write more of my book.

And of course the typical shit. Actually go outside into the sun to get some vitamin d on my pasty skin and get into some serious shape. 

This list seems expensive. I should probably get a job soon to pay for all this shit. laaaame.

For the past two nights I have had dreams in which people I love have died.

I feel like I need a serious psychiatric evaluation.

love waking up with no commitments for the day and lounging in bed all morning.

Men think its a woman's dream to find the perfect man...
Every woman's dream is to eat anything without getting fat.

You

Its hard to me to comprehend that there is somebody out there that loves me as much as you do.
Its such a new feeling for me.
How did I get so lucky?

AMERICA FTL

Had the most amazing night last night with my bff

V, I'm so glad I found a best friend who is just as much of a dork as I am.
There is definitely a reason as to why we've been best friends since grade seven. 
Love you girl.

i got a voicemail message the other day that went something like this...

"I went to Sobeys the other day which made me think of you. I was shopping for melons which made me think of your melons. I miss you. Give me a call back sometime."

I don't even know what to make of this.

awkward dancing shirtless abercrombie models

definitely okay with me.

"We're Volatile"

vol·a·tile

Adjective:	(of a substance) Easily evaporated at normal temperatures.
Noun:	A volatile substance.
Synonyms:	changeable - fickle - inconstant Google dictionary

repeat.

YES PLEASE

I don't know what I did to earn a love like this, 

but baby I must be doin' something right

Making our little getaway

currently renovating the basement and FML.

I am literally washing the walls. with a sponge. and a bucket.
Not the floor... THE WALLS.

This is after I spent the entire day cooking meals and cleaning. 
I feel like Cinderella.
But before she met Prince Charming. Y'know, when she was like a servant.

Can't wait for how great it is going to look once its done!

family > money

The most random interview ever.

I feel like I need to go to an interview wearing a shirt like this. Or something similar.

I mentioned yesterday that I had a group interview today.
It was the most random two hours of my life.

A girl's boob popped out mid-interview, during one of our group discussions. Like, I saw her nipple.
I think its fair to suggest that it was a little inappropriate. There is a good chance she won't be getting the position.

In one part I had to go out to the learning floor and facilitate with kids.
One of the dads hit on me. He was wearing a wedding ring and was with his two daughters. Douche.
One of the interviewer observers (who was assessing me at the time) just stood there, shook her head, and walked away. 

Finally, if you ever feel bad about an interview that didn't go well, at least you didn't answer a question saying that you would go to the morgue. THE MORGUE. I told her that if I could go anywhere to learn more about the human body then I would go to the MORGUE. Holy fuck. The lady probably thinks I'm a fucking psychopath.  FML.

How is this my life right now?

I have a group interview tomorrow for my summer job.

Group interview? WTF does that even mean?

Why is it necessary!?

I also have to bring in an item that represents my personality.
I sincerely hope that everyone else's objects suck as much as mine does.

Went to the zoo yesterday

• Penguins are the most amazing animals ever. 
• I sort've want one as a pet. 
• Except for their poop. That was disgusting. 
• They sort've smell too. 
• They are fricken cute though. 
• I saw a spider monkey swinging around with his wiener out. It was traumatizing. 
• I also saw a gorilla running around with a potato sack on its head. 
• Besides the penguins, the butterfly conservatory was my absolute favourite. So beautiful. 
• Overall a perfect day with the man I love.

I love you, dad.

A father is his daughter's first love and his son's first hero.

OMG HUGH JACKMAN

That is all.

the completely mature way to deal with a long distance relationship.

• a day full of tears
• a giant bowl of ice cream
• a bottle of wine

I know that every time that you leave its only a "see you soon"
but I still hate saying goodbye.

I missed my dad before his surgery by TWO minutes. The lady at the desk said he must've been taken down as I was taking the elevator. :( FML

Happy thoughts for my dad for yet another surgery.

Happy Birthday to my big brother! <3

Happy thoughts for my daddy who's in hospital recovering after his surgery.
Love you papa, can't wait till you get outta there.

Why I Hate Calgary Sometimes

Hundreds of Greenview residents irate over hotel conversion to low income housing

This infuriates me. I am so sick of people making ignorant and discriminatory statements with little education regarding the issue. I'm sorry, but this is fucking ridiculous.

In case you don't want to read the entire article... essentially it is saying that community members are not happy with a proposal to turn a deserted hotel into a low-income housing development. Here are some of their statements regarding the issue:

 "How can I guarantee I am not going to find crack pipes in the park?"
"Can you guarantee my children are not going to see someone sucking on their pipe? These people will kill you for 40 dollars."
"We are going to have people peeing on our lawns"
People are also concerned about "property values, crime rates, drug and alcohol abuse and the screening process for potential renters".

People CLAPPED after these statements. 

Okay seriously... how the fuck can you even respond to something like this? These statements are ill-informed and utterly ridiculous. I'm so shocked that I can barely articulate a response.

K first off, low income housing is not a half-way house!
Low income housing is for the working-poor AKA people who can't afford the ridiculous amount of money it costs to rent in today's economy. A lot of the people are EDUCATED (something these residents don't appear to be) and are just having trouble finding employment. Many of these people have been laid off of high-paying jobs. They are average, hard-working people who have fallen on tough times and need a little help to get their foot back in the door.

Essentially, as of right now, it could be someone just like ME living there. Currently, as a recent graduate with debt, I could be living into one of these housing developments and I promise I would not be "smoking my pipe", killing your children for "40 dollars" or "peeing on your lawn". If someone has a PLACE TO LIVE they will be using the toilets in their HOME. This could be these people if they ever find themselves on tough times. What happens if spouses get laid off and they have to settle for a low-paying job? Try making 9 dollars an hour and living on that. They are working jobs that only offer minimum wage and therefore have difficulty in a city that has such a high cost of living.

I'm not even going to get into the "property values" argument. Fuck their property values, you're helping people find a place to live. You're helping people live better lives. The article states that there is a waiting list of 4,000 people who are waiting for affordable housing in Calgary. That's ridiculously high. These are just the people who have applied! Who know that it is even an option!

However, with ill-informed residents like these people, it sadly wouldn't be an option. Shit like this drives me up the wall. Please, for the love of God, educate yourself before you make yourself look like a total idiot.

not typically my jam

but today, i needed a song like this. 

We start with an hour and we find we waste the day
kicking back with the love we found.

the vow ftw

reference letter... y u no come in mail yet?!

At least this made my day a little bit better.

omg so SO cranky today.
I want to punch something.

I hate myself for having so much stuff.
My mom puts it nicely by saying that I `really like my things.`
In other words, I`m a hoarder.

My room needs serious decluttering. All my stuff from my apartment in Edmonton is stacked up in an entire room in the basement. No joke, the room is completely full of crap.

I need to seriously reorganize my life.

me when I found out I had to wait longer than anticipated to see you again.

got my teaching certification in the mail today. 

NBD or anything! woooo.

*dances (poorly)*

repeat.

gonna take her for a ride on a big jet plane

I'm an architect
Of days that haven't happened yet
I can't believe a month is all it's been
You know my paper heart
The one I filled with pencil marks
I think I might've gone and inked you in

Little by little, inch by inch
We built a yard with a garden in the middle of it
It ain't much but it's a start
You got me swaying right along to the song in your heart
And a face to call home
A face to call home
You got a face to call home

What an absolutely perfect weekend.

Its weekends like this last one (and the camping one, and my birthday one) that remind me why I'm doing the long distance thing.

Had my first steam bath over the weekend.
An "all-inclusive steam bath for two" with J (a birthday gift for me from his mom)
My skin and hair feel incredible and I am so unbelievably relaxed.

Now I want to go have one every day for the rest of my life.

my toaster has a dial on the front of it that controls how well-cooked the toast will be when it comes out. The dial is from 1-7 and you can have any decimal point in between.

I hate burnt toast. I like barely-browned crispy toast.
So I set my toaster on level 2.

It still comes out burnt. Every time.
WTF does 7 look like?!

btw

who's idea was it to give this poor guy that haircut? 
this is probably the worst haircut i have ever seen in my entire life.
I MEAN LOOK AT THAT FRINGE! WTFFF

I have issues

is it weird that I kind of want this picture blown up and put on my ceiling above my bed?

Saw Snow White and the Huntsman Last Night

• Chris Hemsworth... why are you so beautiful?
• Kristen Stewart still only has one expression, regardless of any emotion. 
• The movie would have been so much better without her. 
• Charlize Theron plays a ballin' villain. 
• She also yells. a lot. shes so angry. 
• OMG did you see Chris Hemsworth's arms? 
• They came out in one scene. I didn't want to go pee in case I missed them coming out again another time.
• He is even sexy when he is all covered in dirt and probably hasn't showered in weeks.
• Somebody please explain this to me.
• Chris Hemsworth can I have you babies? Please? 
• Is that inappropriate?
• K seriously, did you not see his arms?

Dancing around in my tights to this while cooking dinner

ya... don't judge me.

Anyways...

in other, completely not related news, Ewan Mcgregor is hot. and when I say that, I mean that I don't think I could find a human being who thinks otherwise.

wtf?

was just called a slob for wearing jeans and a sweater....

• first of all its fucking cold out thank you very much.
• secondly, I'm at home... who the fuck cares?

p.s. I thought I actually looked pretty damn good today. 

why my cat is the best

mostly just because he falls asleep like this. and snores.

Random ex-friend that I was hoping I would never have to see ever again but unfortunately ran into when I was out running errands: "So you're dating that guy from... that town... Red Deer... right...? How's that going...?" (with a weird & confused look on face)
 
Um... wtf? It's great?
I heard you're dating a broad from that city... CALGARY... how's that going?

What a pretentious, Calgary thing to say. 
That comment alone makes me miss Edmonton.

I am almost certain that every single person who works at Crowfoot Plates hates their lives and probably wants to kill themselves. 

Seriously though, you don't have to be such a bitch about everything.

This picture defines my entire life right now.

"They’re fucking gross, man. Look, I love beautiful girls too. I think everyone should be free to have their knee socks and their sweaty shorts, but I’m over it. I’m over this weird, exhausted girl. I’m over the girl that’s tired and freezing and hungry. I like bossy girls, I always have. I like people filled with life. I’m over this weird media thing with all this, like, hollow-eyed, empty, party crap."

— Amy Poehler on American Apparel ads

Seriously jonesing for a double double and an everything bagel with cream cheese from tim hortons.

either that, or a giant bowl of dry roasted peanuts.

I don't pretend to understand why my body wants what it wants. I only wish sometimes it would crave something a little bit healthier.

Whats uuuuuup?

Like always, I've been pretty MIA on the blog front, but with more time I hope that changes. I have actually been super busy, y'know, figuring out my entire life.

So... What have I been up to lately?

• First things first - my birthday. It was incredible. I was able to get all my ladies together for a lovely meal at Open Sesame (honestly, if you haven't gone before, go! it's soo yummy). We got to spend the rest of the night with plenty of drinks and many laughs, as well as some awesome presents. Thank you girls :) My brother and boyfriend were able to come down to Calgary to celebrate my b-day with me, which was incredible. It was so nice to have all my family together to celebrate. My gifts from everyone were beautiful... here is just a snippet of SOME of the things I got (I am seriously spoiled rotten):

Yup that's me... spoiled rotten. NBD. 

• I spent all of last week in Edmonton to celebrate my boyfriend's birthday with him. He didn't do so bad either. But I want to wish him a very happy (belated) 24th birthday! I hope he enjoyed all his birthday surprises. God I love that man.

• I also spent a bajillion hours working on my portfolio over the past month which is nearly done! Only a couple more things need to be added. If that thing doesn't get me a job, I dunno what will.

• Oh! and my dad is also recovering from a motorbike accident, so send positive thoughts his way for a speedy recovery!

• Now, I am currently waiting to get my reference letters back from a couple of people so I can send off my applications! This will be a whole load of my shoulders, as I am going to start applying to 3 different school boards, and continue on from there. Fingers crossed :). 

• Next up... I seriously need to think hard about what to get my brother for his birthday and dad for father's day. What do people get their dad's these days? and please, please, PLEASE, don't let it cost me a fortune.

What's Next?

Now that I have completed my degree... There are quite a few things that I need to be doing...

• Applying for (and hopefully getting) a teaching job for the school year. 
• Reading - So many books that I wasn't able to read because I was too busy with school. 
• Hanging with the bests. 
• Write more of my book. 
• Update my blog more often. 
• Work out more. 
• Get a job for the summer (yuck)

And probably most importantly...

• Figure out what the hell I'm going to do with the rest of my life - like, for example, where the hell I'm going to be living in September... it might make applying for a job a LITTLE easier. 

"You may see this and think its magic, 

but falling in love is an act of magic. "

My cats are retarded and often do not land on their feet.
That is all.

That moment when...

i'm lying in bed and can't figure out what is preventing me from falling asleep.
The bed feels colder, roomier, quieter and my head just doesn't fit on the pillow properly.
Then I realize its because lying alone in bed is an unfamiliar feeling. 
I'm so used to feeling the heat from your body, being curled up next to you, hearing you inhale and exhale, and having your arm under my head to support my neck.

The first night alone is always the strangest.

My Next Read:

Soo apparently my body doesn't feel as though 8-10 hours of sleep is enough anymore. 

How the hell did I used to survive off of 4-6 hours?

Is this what getting old feels like?!