I have tried so hard over the last few months to put the past behind me and close that chapter of my life. Now that I've done that, the future is so uncertain. See, school is familiar to me. Spending nearly my entire life in school has made it something very comfortable for me. Now that I don't wake up and go to school, and spend long nights studying, I feel a little bit lost and empty, venturing into uncharted territory.
I know it will get better. It's just the post-graduation blues talking.
Taking the job I got yesterday makes me feel as though I'm back-peddling, and reopening that old chapter in my life that I struggled to slam shut. I feel as though part of me is reliving the past and I feel as though I haven't achieved much because I'm right back where I was a few years ago. I don't have a choice though, I need an income and this is the only way that I can do that.
Ugghhhhh
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