proudest gf in the universe!

my boyfriend got an interview with the school board!!

I am insensitive. I have a tendency
To pay more attention to the things that I need.
Sometimes I drink too much, sometimes I test your trust,
Sometimes I don't know why you're staying with me?

I'm hard to love, hard to love,
I don't make it easy,
I couldn't do it if I stood where you stood
I'm hard to love, hard to love,
You say that you need me,
I don't deserve it but I love that you love me.

bad things come in threes

1. my paycheck was super small - half of what i expected.
2. i backed my car into a pole last night.
3. i drowned j's phone in the washing machine.

fml x 100000000000

poor decisions

made kraft dinner.
wasn't as good as i expected.
ate four bites and was finished.

eating a banana instead.

im craving kraft dinner like an eight year old.
what the fuck is wrong with me?

got a call for subbing this morning at 8:21... the subbing job started at 8:25 on the other side of the city.
mmmmm nope.

Soooo I logged into my email and realized I get a whole lot of emails advertising for hot local SENIORS.
wtfffff

I understand a dude getting spam for penis enlargements or girls getting hot local men... but seriously... SENIOR DATING SITES.

what compelled this? i do not know.

might have another kid to tutor soon! wooooo :)

got the boyfriend's present for our anni!! can't wait to give it to himmm!

whyyyyyyy

are you so good looking?!

i need more of this in my life.

when i'm at my shitty supervisor job and am asked what i'm doing after work...

awww ya shakespeare ya

just applied for a job so i can quit my shitty one! wooooo :) fingers crossed for me!!

currently applying for a sweet fucking job, all thanks to my bro finding it.
fuck yaaaa

things i hate

watching a youtube video and the video has a giant introduction or ending... ugh stfu I just wanna watch your tutorial or cover.

"thanks for subscribing... i made this a couple days ago... i look so tired because i didnt get to sleep until 2 because my cat was meowing because he was upset because he didn't get fed last night because my boyfriend and i went on a date and completely forgot about him and then...."

giofjgiodfjgidfjgidfjgifd just stop.

always gonna be you.

 
But it's always gonna be you
Always gonna be you I'm lookin' for

stay with me through september...

stay with me through september
the nights are getting cold
old man winter gonna be here soon...

omg. best thing i've ever seen.
the dogs all sad looking in the background.
brb, dying.

and why is the dog wearing a pizza box?!

I am insensitive; I have a tendency to pay more attention to the things that I need.
Sometimes I drink too much. Sometimes I test your trust. Sometimes I dunno why you're staying with me?

found a recipe for a deep dish chocolate chip cookie for one.
oh my sweet jesus, yes. 

my boyfriend is fucking incredible.

yesterday he made me breakfast and tea in the morning and took me out for a celebratory lunch all because I got my first subbing call. I got a cooked breakfast the day before when I found out i would be subbing.

i'm not used to having someone be so proud of me and so supportive of everything that i do.

i can never stop expressing how much i love this man and i don't care who knows about it.

when the doctor asked about my current physical activity levels and eating habits.

I work out and do physical activity at LEAST six times a week and have been eating a ton of healthier food then before when I was a student. 

AND I've lots a ton of weight since last year, fuck you very much!

I hate my supervisor job and love my tutoring/mentoring job.

I think I'm going to start up my own private tutoring business and quit my other job.

Don't need the stress and I want to do something that I love doing, not something that makes me hate myself. Every time I think about my supervisor job I get so depressed and down. Its insane. Who wants to feel that way?

All I need is a good solid 3-4 subbing calls a week and I will quit. I would quit right now if I could to be completely honest.

There is a subbing-thief out there.

Today, my prayers had finally been answered. I got a call to sub in a high school teaching English. Pretty much my IDEAL job offer (besides social studies of course!) I was so excited while listening to the details and making mental notes, that I must not have acted fast enough. I say this because my subbing call then got stolen from me!

The phone rang at 6:45, rushed to get to the phone, and had to listen to the request twice because the absent teacher left the lesson plan in the job description (which is automated on the phone call - not actually him talking). After hearing it a second time, and writing down all the details, I pressed one to accept and the automated voice said "Sorry, this job is no longer available. Good-bye."

OH MY GOD. Someone took the job offer while I was on the fricken phone listening to the offer while being a GOOD TEACHER and writing down everything I had to do for that day. They probably did it online.

Bastards. Its apparently a jungle out here and I have to step up my game to get all the calls. 

So as my readers know, I got my first subbing call yesterday. Now, I'm a secondary teacher and I was a little worried when I got a grade FOUR class, but it went sooo soo well. We did so many things: Art, Math, Library, Recess, Silent Reading, Gym, and Read-Aloud Story Time. The kids were so good for me and the day went by perfectly without a hitch.

It only further clarified how much I love teaching and how it is exactly what I want to do for the rest of my working life. It doesn't even seem like work for me anymore.

Getting that first call was unbelievable. A big thanks to V who actually recommended me to the teacher.
Love you girl.

Serendipity: (n)

finding something good without looking for it.

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg....

I have a fucking teaching job tomorrow morning... WTF!

♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫

 
so let me go
take me with ya baby
it’s so cold outside your arms
and we both know that you’re not as strong
as you think you are

♫  ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫

FYI

Annually, September 10th is World Suicide Prevention Day, an important day in the lives of anyone who has been impacted by a suicide.

According to the World Health Organization, "almost 3000 people commit suicide daily. For every person who completes a suicide, 20 or more may attempt to end their lives".

There needs to be a better understanding and less of a taboo when it comes to suicide and mental health.

It isn't worth losing a loved one over.  

Get educated and spread the word... Suicide Prevention

ANXIETY X 10000000000

I have tried so hard over the last few months to put the past behind me and close that chapter of my life. Now that I've done that, the future is so uncertain. See, school is familiar to me. Spending nearly my entire life in school has made it something very comfortable for me. Now that I don't wake up and go to school, and spend long nights studying, I feel a little bit lost and empty, venturing into uncharted territory.

I know it will get better. It's just the post-graduation blues talking.

Taking the job I got yesterday makes me feel as though I'm back-peddling, and reopening that old chapter in my life that I struggled to slam shut. I feel as though part of me is reliving the past and I feel as though I haven't achieved much because I'm right back where I was a few years ago. I don't have a choice though, I need an income and this is the only way that I can do that.

Ugghhhhh

brb dying

Democratic National Convention

"Mitt Romney would raise taxes on middle class families to cut his own and mine... and that's not who we are as a nation and let me tell you why. Because the Eva Longoria who worked at Wendy's flipping burgers - SHE needed a tax break, but the Eva Longoria who works on movie sets does not."

"In 2008, less than half of all eligible voters between the ages of 18 and 24 voted. Less than half. Young America, why are we only speaking with half our voice when so many issues at stake here directly effect us?"

I have an interview today.

If I get the job it means that I went from having one job last week, to having three this week.
Fingers crossed for me :)

today i washed my brothers ashtray and realized that it was actually a dish that belonged to my old cat, maverick.

needless to say it brought a couple tears along with it.

there are no words to describe how amazing this cat was. 

too good not to repost

using empathy and fear of invasion for political platform.
posted this a couple months ago but still very interesting.

Being a substitute teacher blows so far. No calls = no money for me.
C'MON TEACHERS! Get sick already! I need some work!

sooo i almost died yesterday...

I woke up yesterday in a foul mood. No joke. So when J insisted that we go to the farm to go 3-wheeling and motorbiking, it was the last thing I wanted to do.

I have never been on a 3 wheeler, but how hard could it be?
Apparently very hard if you're me.

I was having such a great time. Totally turned my day around. I started to relax and really enjoy myself when my pant leg got stuck in the tire and it subsequently pulled my leg under it as well. The next thing I knew I was on the ground with the 3-wheeler crushing my leg. Since J was waiting for me up ahead I had to push the 3-wheeler off all by myself, all the while it was squishing my leg. I managed to but was in so much pain I was close to puking. I felt for sure that every bone in my leg, foot, and ankle were broken.

J rode back to me as I was about to pass out. My vision was blurring and I felt like throwing up. He was so calm and told me to lie back as he took a look at my leg.After poking and prodding, he felt like it wasn't broken.

I think I strained my ankle, twisted it, and have some soft tissue damage, because holy fuck does it ever hurt. I almost wish it was broken so that I didn't feel like such a pussy.

Also, in the fall, I pulled my groin really badly because of the sheer force of the tire pulling me off. It split the pants in the crotch - thank god I was wearing underwear hahaha

I am now on crutches. In a lot of pain. And resting on the couch for a few days.

I feel like such an idiot about it, but glad I have so many people taking care of me <3 p="p">
It turns out that maybe a city girl isn't cut out for the country lifestyle.

reminds me of my big bro

"I heard what you said. I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want…a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved."
— Shana Abé

"Yes, I’m drunk. And you’re beautiful. And tomorrow morning, I’ll be sober but you’ll still be beautiful."